ERRRRRRRRRRRR!
It won't stop!
I just feel really defeated.
I just don't know what to do anymore!
Nothing helps.
I don't know if I can get through this.
I don't know if I'm strong enough.
I must have some hope to cling to though. Killing myself to put myself out of my misery is still very much not an option, and I don't feel like it ever will be.
Please keep praying!
Jon, you and I both know that suicide is NOT and will NEVER be an option. Please don't even joke about it; I can't describe with words how much that would not only hurt your family, but also the youth group, and especially The Dudes.
ReplyDeleteYou watched a man mercilessly beaten, brutally torn apart, cruelly tortured, and finally murdered in a way that not even the most real of nightmares could fully construct. You may be suffering from some sort of PTSD; it would come as no surprise, after watching something like that. Things like that are not meant to be watched.
Please, for your sake, if you haven't talked to someone about this, do so. Your parents, youth leaders, Pastor Cameron, just someone that can help you. I'm here and always will be here for you, but I know I'm not equipped to give you the help you need. Regardless, I'll be here to give you support whenever you need it.
You have NOT been defeated, Jon. You will NOT be defeated. Keep fighting, brother. Keep fighting, but don't fight alone. For the love of God, don't fight this alone.
I love you, man, and will continue to pray for you. Again, if you need ANYTHING call me. Don't care if you need to talk, just want to talk, or simply need someone to stay on the phone with you, just call me.